This morning I woke up hoping for a good day. Later on, I found myself answering an anonymous call. I didn't recognize the voice, but when the caller introduced herself..It finally rang a bell. I don't want to elaborate on what the call was about, just that I was judged incorrectly. It turns out that someone had misunderstood me. I tried to correct the notion, but I wasn't at the right place to do so(I just came from a meeting).
I always thought that having friends was one of the greatest gifts that a person could have. I was always thankful for the gift of friendship. However, sometimes (most of the time in my case) the gift of friendship is always misinterpreted as something more(especially with men). I was shocked when I received the call. First and foremost, I never had any intention of being more than just a friend. Secondly, I never recall of writing any word/s conveying that I had interest in having more than friendship. Thirdly, I have a name and a reputation to take care of(I'm a Filipina and I have my values).
I risk a lot in baring my soul here but I am taking that risk... if only to save my wounded pride. I have been hurt by what happened, as this has not been the first time that I have been accused of something I didn't do nor had any intention of doing. At this point I am trying to convince myself that friendship is indeed a gift. It's surprising how you wake up one day and suddenly realize that you might have been living in a lie(friendship being a gift I mean). I shall partially take the blame for being naive and letting my guard down... If believing that having friends is a fault then I shall take the blame. But I will not sit in the sidelines when you judge my character based on whatever it is you want to believe. If only you took the time to understand everything then maybe you could have gotten to know me better. Unfortunately, it was misconstrued as something deeper than what it really is...that "kuya" was all it ever was.
Lastly, let this be an open letter(you know who you are)..to defend myself and my reputation.
I am not expecting any explanation whatsoever..I have not done anything wrong because if I did I wouldn't be writing this. I seldom end a friendship, but if I shall serve as a threat or hindrance to any reconciliation...then I have to go..
Let me be just a memory of someone you had passed along during your life's journey....
Labels: emotions, friendship, whatever